Wilting.

I’m just so bored lately. Tired–not sure if I’m still getting over sickness exhaustion or if it’s just from being bored; or if being bored is merely lack of enthusiasm caused by the tiredness. Your typical “chicken or the egg?” complex.

I did get back the gym on Friday and it felt great.  Hoping to go again tomorrow after weigh-in. But I haven’t packed up my gym bag yet…Look at all that enthusiasm….:::SIGH:::…

Oh but Poor Knucks!  He had surgery yesterday to remove his dew claw…long story.  He had an awful night (not as awful as mine when I was edged out of my own bed)  He just was so uncomfortable, and it made me feel so sad for him knowing that there was no way I could ease his discomfort, there was no way to explain to him that if he just lays down and leaves his foot alone it will get better.   And putting an E-Collar on him was like Chinese water torture to an African.  He got so confused he couldn’t move. He cried and whined and when that didn’t work his poor body started to shake. I put him in the crate today when I left for work with a nice juicy marrow bone, but reports are that he didn’t touch it… instead he tore up a piece of the rug under the crate and also chewed off his bandage.  His stitches are intact and the incision isn’t really red or irritated. Now is the debate of whether or not to risk him chewing out the stitches tomorrow in his crate.  Option A: Put him in the crate with the E-collar and hope for the best; knowing how much he will not understand and be uncomfortable and scared all day, but be pretty sure that he’s not chewing at his foot. Option B: No E-collar and hope that  now that the bandage is off his foot doesn’t feel so funny and he’ll just chew up his bedding instead of the stitches… This one is a complete toss-up. but somehow I feel it’s the one that will be put into action tomorrow.
Please cross your fingers and pray that which ever option is selected, it will be the right one, and he will be comfortable.

Either way the marrow bone is going back in with him. He’ll have to eat it sometime. Or atleast he’ll have ant buddies come in and say hello.  Ew.

God’s Bowling Team

I’m 23 years old and nighttime thunder and lightning storms still put a chill in my body.  The flashes of lightning make me shudder, the longer the light, the worse I feel. And those quick pows freak me the fuck out. I enjoy the slow nighttime rumbles, hearing God move his furniture from one room to the next, it’s peaceful to me. But anything in more decibels than that–ouch.

But daytime thunder and lightning I find enjoyable. Usually. If I’m home alone it’s debateable…Sometimes it’s good sometimes it’s bad. But whatever. I’m working through it. Jarrod would smirk at me if I said “I’m getting over it”

I do miss Jarrod. As awkward as it was at the time, I think he was one of those angels you hear that get sent into your life for a period of time, to help you, and then go on their way.  My dog just ripped a huge stinky hankering fart. yuck.  Sorry to ruin the moment, but he totally did.  He’s been farting, burping, and vomiting all night/evening–hope he feels better tomorrow.

Hat’s Off: Stampin’ Up! Contest

I can’t wait… Here is one of my submissions for the April “Hat’s Off” Contest for Stampin’ Up!

Tell me what you think please!!  And despite what the image tells you…the frame around “hope” is silver.  Not gold.

You don’t know what you have.

I was just playing around with different themes for my blog.  I did not realize that when I activated a new theme my current header would go MIA. Which typically would not be a problem if I created that header on this computer. Which I had not. The computer I created it on, the same computer that holds 95% of the photos of my deceased best friend, is dead. And I have yet to find someone who can retrieve information off my old hard drive. Therefore, I needed to search my computer for a comprable header. Which I found. However, I did not find a different theme that I could live with. Therefore I reverted back to my original theme, and was going to use my new header…until…..voila! My old header stayed with my old theme! hooray!!  So I’m Happy. Although I do think I like my new header, I think it fits my title better. So say good bye to my pretty kitties. I wish there was some way to save this header as a photo… I’ll leave it up for a few days so if you know how, please pass on the info.   And right clicking on it does not work.

But please be excited for my new header.

death becomes her…

Monday my glands were so swollen I was crying. Doc put me on antibiotics and anti-inflamatories. My body lost strength. A lot of strength. Had trouble sleeping due to sinus pressure a few nights later which brings me to today. I think my sickness is finally leaving me. After a week of kicking my ass and using up my vacation days. Well see what the all knowing doc has to say this afternoon.

UPDATE (4:21 pm): Doc says my culture results show some huge long name beginning with what sounds like an ‘h’ which means I have the flu. Ouch.  But I did lose almost 3 pounds since Monday. New slogan: The Flu-a girls ’second’ best friend.

On a much sadder note…I had to say goodbye to my vegan friends blog. Which sparks a fire under my ass because while I understand that anything on the web is accessible to anyone else and yada yada yada, I seriously hoped that humanity would allow us, not the privacy, but the dignity to post things that are ourselves and not be persecuted, or a lesser evil, judged in our “real lives” for what we do/say/think on here. And I do limit that to posts that do not effect someone else’s life. Obviously, if I slandered or revealed secrets about someone in my real life on here and they stumbled upon it, I could only expect, and only hope, that they would say something to my face about it. However, I would hope that so long as I am not doing such things, my thoughts/ideas/comments would have some sort of false anonymity. If you share my posted beliefs about such and such and want to comment/discuss them in “real life” fine. However, if you do not, I think it is best to leave that chapter closed.

Whatever. that’s all I have to say about that.

A new month is almost here. Which means shortly I will post the photos of my amazing projects that I submitted to Stampin’ Up!’s “hats off” contest!

Ponder this…

Whether you believe in God or in Darwin…why do we have to wipe our asses?

See you Sunday

Put on yo’ dancin’ shoes!! Party starts tomorrow night for my cousins birthday!! WooHoo!

And P.S. I had a very successful class tonight Yay–Stay tuned for info on my  next one–or keep checking my business website

A horrible week isn’t turning out so bad…(She said.)   Please don’t let me have just jinxed myself!!

Alcohol, Drugs, Tobacco, Televison.

I have come to ponder that life, is a series of addictions.  I have come to realize this while planning my evening meal of fast food with a Black in my mouth and a Captain on my mind. Now obviously I hit on 3 large addictions right there. Junk food. Nicotine. Alcohol. In other words: the addiction of consumption of substances.

Now here’s where many will withstand and say of course those are addictions and those that partake in those substances in excess consumption and can not survive without said substances are by definition addicts. And here is where I ask you to ponder the addictions in your life…  Maybe liquor or nicotine aren’t your taste–perhaps, like me, you intake fast food in moderation, or not at all. But I want you to think about the things that make you happy. Is it spending time with your family? Is it shopping? Maybe you love a nice cup of coffee (everyday 8 times a day!)? Do you watch movies alot? Do you listen to music in your car, or perhaps you prefer a little talk radio?  What ever floats your boat, think of how often it floats your boat.   A lot right? and it’s probably quite a few things that get your boat moving down stream…

Your life is run by a series of addictions. You do these things because they make you feel good, and then you want more of them.  You like your cup of coffee every morning, but you really need your cup of coffee to get you going, you’re unable to function with out it. You like the radio on in your car to keep you company, you feel lonely with out it.  Perhaps you feel deprived and irrationally (actually rationally) upset when you can’t go out and blow your paycheck on the latest electronics or new line of clothes.  Your daily ritual of reading the newspaper during breakfast can not be interupted lest the whole flow of your day gets thrown askew.

We are enslaved to our daily rituals. Our daily rituals have become habits. So much so that cessation causes trauma. Thus, we are addicted to all those little things that make our world turn round. We are slaves to our lives, our series of addictions.

eleven, eleven.

It’s currently 2:12 am. I’ve been up since about 12:40 ish… Yesterday was a pretty shitty work day for me. And seeing as how I’m not getting much sleep tonight tomorrow can’t possibly be any better. fuck this.

I try to get comfortable and think of happy  memories to drift off to sleep but I can’t find any in my brain. That’s comforting in and of itself. fuck that.

What do I do?  I’m so lost. I feel like I’m a dinghy floating along in a tempest-so dark, so cold. I’m soaked to the core under my yellow rain suit. It’s a joke watching me try to keep abreast with my two old wooden oars. It’s all I can do to make sure I bail out enough water to keep afloat.

Holy Possum!

Okay first off, I think opossum should be a palindrome. Hands down it’s one of the coolest words in the history of germanic languages. I don’t care that it doesn’t spell the same word backwards as it does forwards… it should still be a palindrome.

Secondly, there was a mega super fat opossum that ran across my yard tonight and nested under my front porch. Perhaps soon we will have tiny opossums running across the yard.

Thirdly, this gives me yet another reason (don’t read: excuse) to have my parents keep their cat confined inside (read: alive). Mayhaps they will listen (read: obey).

Today was a good day, by chance I’ll say a good ending to the weekend. And alas tomorrow I go back to work for another week. Blah. But I do have a super cool class coming up on Friday! yipee! Hopefully I’ll have more than 2 attendees this time!

Yesterday I bought this “liniment” from GNC. well okay my dad paid for it but I found it and picked it out. haha. For my ankle…Mayhaps it will work? we’ll try it tonight, I have moderate ankle pain right now and stellar head pain.

But I did make two necklaces today, and some earrings to semi-match a necklace made in the past. And I tried making another dream catcher. I say tried because my tension for the webbing was all over the place. I did the center once and when I got close to closeing it it was WAY to loose, it was very hole-y, so i attempted it again (after undo-ing all the stitching because how dare I waste the waxed thread that i have 100,000 feet off….sigh) and the second attempt revealed too much tension….So by that time I had to go. So I packed it all up, perhaps I’ll attempt a third go but perhaps not.

Tonights agenda? I do not know, but I do know I forgot to do a lot of things today, like call my gym and asked why they over charged me. Call the nursery and ask why  my PRICKLESS prickly pear cactus is now growing PRICKS?! and going to the craft store to get stencil medium to finally complete my chalkboard project. Oh and I still have laundry in the machines…. oops!

Oh and on a P.S. My dog is attacking Bailey when bailey goes near his food. super cool. asshole.